The furthest back I can still hear.

I could not tell you the year I started paying attention. I can tell you the light — low and yellow through a window that never quite shut, and the sound of a house waking up around me while I pretended to still be asleep.

Things were made to be mended then. You wore a thing until it gave, and somebody sat with it a while and gave it back to you, and you wore it again. Nothing was finished just because it was worn.

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Good for its age. Even fade across the body, a soft collar, no holes.

• Single-stitch construction throughout
• Soft, well-washed cotton jersey
• Measurements on request
• Cold wash, dry flat

What survives from this far back survives by accident. Someone forgot to throw it out. Someone put it in a box, and the box went up into a loft, and the loft stayed dry. That is the whole story of everything in this chapter.

Nothing was finished just because it was worn.

I learned early that you can love an object without ever saying so. You simply keep reaching for it. You keep choosing it over the newer one, and after enough years that choice is the only record anybody has of what you felt.

By the end of it I had my own way of standing and my own way of leaving a room, and both of them are still in the shoulders of these clothes.